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Few things irritate or turn me off more than finding fic for a rare pairing that I adore, only to have it be a cookie-cutter characterization-free smut scene written by someone who developed their idea of "sexy" by reading fanfiction.net. (IT'S OKAY TO GET SOME CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT ON YOUR PORN. THE SMUT CAN HANDLE IT, SMUT IS GOOD AT MULTITASKING.)
This is why I don't read fic terribly often anymore (lack of sex drive aside). I've been spoiled by the good stuff, and I'm no longer so rabidly attached to the things I fan that I will slog through mediocre dreck just to get my fix. I don't know if this apathy is a characteristic of my current state of mind- i.e., broken and bleeding out my ears- or a symptom of my general disillusionment with fandom. Have I just gotten too old to maintain the level of intense connection I once had with fandom? Or is it that the shows and stories that I follow now simply lack the quality and pull of my old fandoms? (Given that the one thing I obsessed over more than any other was Naruto, some five years ago, this seems unlikely.)
It probably doesn't help that most of the things I follow have very small fandoms, which makes it easy to quickly exhaust the supply of good shit.
This is all mostly just to say that I dearly wish I didn't have to expend so much effort to find halfway decent Ryan/Esposito fic for Castle, and I dearly hope that the White Collar fandom explodes into a gigantic orgy of polyamorous fluff. (Peter is very growly and competent when he's on his own- put him next to his wife, however, and he gets flustered and useless. He also gets flustered and useless around Neal. <3 I am enjoying this show so much and Natalie Morales just showed up to make things even more awesome and everyone is so pretty and and and hee.)
This is why I don't read fic terribly often anymore (lack of sex drive aside). I've been spoiled by the good stuff, and I'm no longer so rabidly attached to the things I fan that I will slog through mediocre dreck just to get my fix. I don't know if this apathy is a characteristic of my current state of mind- i.e., broken and bleeding out my ears- or a symptom of my general disillusionment with fandom. Have I just gotten too old to maintain the level of intense connection I once had with fandom? Or is it that the shows and stories that I follow now simply lack the quality and pull of my old fandoms? (Given that the one thing I obsessed over more than any other was Naruto, some five years ago, this seems unlikely.)
It probably doesn't help that most of the things I follow have very small fandoms, which makes it easy to quickly exhaust the supply of good shit.
This is all mostly just to say that I dearly wish I didn't have to expend so much effort to find halfway decent Ryan/Esposito fic for Castle, and I dearly hope that the White Collar fandom explodes into a gigantic orgy of polyamorous fluff. (Peter is very growly and competent when he's on his own- put him next to his wife, however, and he gets flustered and useless. He also gets flustered and useless around Neal. <3 I am enjoying this show so much and Natalie Morales just showed up to make things even more awesome and everyone is so pretty and and and hee.)
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